A Bumpy Ride.....

Well, my dear, you didnt know about this because I never told anyone. After I set it up, I realized or should I say felt at the time, that it was , well, rather embarrassing. I may feel differently now. I honestly am so surprised that you found it.....I had pretty much buried it to the dark corners of my mind. Feeling as if it were just one ore embarrassing blunder....somehow, though, I am feeling better about it. So, as I sit here typing, I am trying to recall my exact reasons for starting this blog. I think it was to get the input of others starting on the new adventure of self discovery. Most people, I believe are many people rolled into one. Sometimes they meld in a positive way and enhance each other. Some are ones we have created to fit in...to be loved and excepted ...and that is where I come in. To realize after 25 years of marriage that you have not been true to yourself is quite an eye opener. To know that while you used to admire the person you married, you no longer and that they have never admired your true self and have not allowed you to be yourself. Especially, while you have nurtured them and allowed them to be just who they had chosen they wanted to be. Oh, I have thought this off and on throught those 25 years but would quickly dimiss the thought. Now at the wonderful age of 45, I can no longer do that. I miss that old person, I liked many aspects of that old person... and I want her back. I want to be creative, spontaneous, outgoing and friendly....and I miss church! Now at 20 years with and added benefit of 25 years of life experience I believe I can move forward with that. With the help of some awesome friends, I know that I can fnd the courage to do just that! So here we go Celeste! Thank you for giving me the love and strength to move forward...thank you for being a wonderful role model for being true to ones own self.....its going to be a bumpy ride but one that will be much worth the adventure and the trip!