Definately May

....and I cant wait! Has anyone noticed the Harley Hauler in my parking lot space? It was brought here for me to take my time and fill it up. Im hoping to be outta here on May 13th. Danielle graduate Cum Laude from Edinboro on the 12th. My parents will be here the week before. My nephew, Jeffrey will be coming home from California for a few days before they send him to Kuwait....Im dreading that. He will be driving truck from Kuwait into Bagdad. Anyone reading this, please pray for his safety.
The work on the big ole Victorian house that will be Garys and my home is coming along very well. We worked in the yard together on Saturday. I just loved it! The looks we exchanged were worth a thousand words. We are both very very happy with our choice. For the first time, for me anyway, we have adult couple friends that we go out to dinner with. We have people calling us that say when I get moved into town they want to set up dinner dates with us. We have only been biking just the two of us, but we have friends that have bikes too. So when Garys back heals that will be another thing to look forward to.
Im laying in bed right now fighting the flu so I have definately been slown down. I have got to get things organized...Garys back surgery on the 3rd, Danielles graduation on the 12th ....Im sure Derrick wont be talking to me enough to need my helping moving back to his dads. and I wish this damned leg infection would clear up....I have been battling this since November. Maybe this bout with the flu is Gods way of saying lay down with your foot off and heal. It still sucks.
well new thoughts another day.......

Maybe May

Well it looks as though it may be a couple months before I move. I will miss this town house. My first home. A place my children and I have enjoyed....especially Danielle and I. Derrick really hasn't spent all that much time together.
I know that Gary and I will definitely miss this house! Our hide away....our place to escape the rest of the world. Many wonderful memories....dancing in the kitchen...taxi rides from Sarah's....Mexican food and drinks....our first Christmas. Our view of the lake and grilling steaks on the patio in the winter. Dominic's on Sunday morning.......Gary tells me that we'll escape to Erie on Saturdays...get a motel and enjoy our favorite places! Hes a wonderful man.

Where Do I Start Again?

I have set down to write a new entry at least tens times in the past month and I just cant seem to separate my thoughts enough to write clearly. So if this sounds like a jumbled mess, I apologize now.
What a year this has been! Celeste, even though this has been a tumultuous one for our friendship, I do owe a lot to you in helping me to decide to take control of my life. For offering your help originally in my move and helping me to realize that was truly in an unhealthy situation. I do miss you....and I will miss you when I move on to the next phase in my life.
I will be moving back to Cherry Creek. Into a big old victorian house, that will become Garys and my home. The move will cause great discomfort for my exhusband....I feel badly about that but I cant let that stand in my way. I have never been treated with such love and respect from any man as I have from Gary. I cant lose that...Im not getting younger!
Gary and I enjoy so many of the same thing. I am really thrilled that he encourages me to enjoy the music that I was my life when I was younger and had to give up for the last 20+ years except for when my husband wasnt home. I am encouraged to paint and draw and sing and I dont get laughed at or discouraged.....and I laugh! Oh Lord! How wonderful to laugh! I truly thought I had forgotten how to laugh a real laugh. I found myself the past several years screeching a forced lauigh that was too loud and too sharp. My laughs are real and spontanious and natural now.
Packing will be a chore as I am still having a hard time with my leg not healing. At least now I dont have the presure of trying to find a job. I have worked so hard for the past 7 years to not be disabled but it will be easier on this worn out old body of mine to be legally labeled as such. Maybe I can start some sort of small business or someting to keep me busy and earn a little extra money. I will now be able to keep my car, pay for it myself and do as I please and enjoy life with a big ole lovable teddy bear to love and care for each other and have fun and laugh together. Someone to share good and bad without blame and added pain. Life is good.....God is good! Thank you Lord! You have blessed me! I know with your guidance my children will enjoy their lives and choices as well. I pray that you will also guide Scott to a happy life instead of the bitter one he has been living. In there somewhere is a good person...I know that...I remember that man. I just hope he can remember that part of himself and salvage the rest of his life and be happy and content also.