Its Alive! Its Alive!!!!

Yep folks!!! Sometimes you just feel like you may be the bride of Frankenstein!!!! Some folks believe you were created to be with this monster and something inside you tells you...absolutely not! I now find myself walking around my house in some kind of dazed, confused fog........I'll be doing my regular things around the house, putting away laundry, vaccuming , dusting and then it dawns on me, in a month, I am sure, I will not even be allowed to pull into the driveway here! The scared, insecure part of me that has ruled me for so long starts to freak out and then the calm secure and brave Leo in me says....dont worry...you can take care of yourself! We dont know how yet....but it will happen...it is meant to be. God put me on this path a little over six years ago. I believe he said to me....'youre not listening. so Im going to shake up your life a little harder. then Im going to place people in your cirle that will help guide you. and those people will put more people in your circle of life that will also help you to realize the proper path for you at this time' God does that to us, you know? We just have to be brave enough to listen...to have faith enough to know that He wants us to be successful in our lives here....all of us. I pray my 'Frankenstein' will be happy and successful! Im going to miss him.......I pray that in the long run, he will no longer hate me for what I am about to do and that we can enjoy our childrens lives separately but at the same time and harmoniously. I still believe in happily ever after ....just not for me with this man. Maybe there will be another.........maybe not. (yea, that thought saddens me) The ruling forces that I have been born into are strong, (sign of Leo, year of the Ox and dont forget Akabal baby!), others I know that have born under those same exact three signs are very strong. I know that I can be creative, strong and reliable also....so with holding my breath and my eyes wide open, I am about to take my first steps as the independent , ex-bride of Frankenstein..........I will be alive ( i just have to remember to breath!!!!LOL)